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god i dont think life has sucked more for me before.....i quit my job the other day b/c my boss was yelling at me....then i find out he calls my mom today and tells her all this shit and gets me in trouble...how fuckin childish...mmm then today i told mike i liked him(my best friend) little did i know he's going back out with his ex who he dumped b/c she wasnt as fun as me...i just dont get it....i think i deserve to be happy....why the fuck cant i be...maybe my fear will come true and i will end up alone....maybe my soulmate killed himself so i will never find him....damn that would be my fuckin luck...ok im done bitching...now im going to drown my sorrows in a glass of peach shnopps(yummy)
xoxo
Lizzie
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[10 Sep 2002|12:06am] |
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~sometimes you need to let your heart lead you.....even if it's to some place you know your not supposed to be~
why do people fall in like with the ones they can never have...i just dont get it...word of advice...never fall in love with ur best friend...it hurts way to much...nuff said
xoxo
Liz
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[09 Sep 2002|12:18am] |
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blah ok so its been forever since i posted in here...alot of things have happend...and i wrote them all in my deadjournal...so if u care...read it there ...my name is forevers2long
umm i promised nick id post in here:) hi nick!
right now im listening to the juliana theory...almost in tears...and wishing i had a guy to call my own...well im done yapping for now
xoxo
Lizzie
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[29 Dec 2001|12:47am] |
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this song is a really good song and i don't want to forget the lyrics so i'm putting them in here!!!(thanks Kymmango)If I were with you tonight
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I'd sing you to sleep
With a soft lullaby
And hold you in my arms
And dream of things to come
With rising stars, and falling tides
Becomes a dream trapped in our minds
And we make the heavens jealous
Wishing for nothing but to be us
And for the rest of my life
I'll consider myself blessed
Even if this dream doesn't last
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Now this is a love song!!! If a guy sings that to me...i would die...
Nuttin else new happened today so l8er g8er
XOXO
Lizzie
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[28 Dec 2001|02:47am] |
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Yes i am once again bored as hell and i feel like shit.....what else could possibly go wrong in my life???
You know when people ask that question"if you had the chance would you ever change yourself?" and most people say....well i love myself...i would change nothing...Well that is bull shit.....noone is totally secure with whatthey look like...b/c there is always something or SOMEONE making u feel bad about urself!!! God...ok this is the part where i whine about my pathetic life and how i wish i would just go away....so click on the "X" box at the top of ur screen if you don't care...
Reasons i could never be truely happy:::
1) No matter how hard i try...or how much i love (_______)<----if you don't know who this is then don't ask!!!! I know he will never love me....ya wanna know why?
Because...i'm NOT good enough....even tho i am exactly what he wants in a girl...forgive me for being egotistical....(pretty, funny, sweet,loving,etc.)he can't love me b/c i don't have the perfect body!!!
Now tell me how that is right?
2)No matter how hard i try not to do it....i lose all my friends....all the best ones i mean....I some how manage to make them hate me and be mean to me....and it sucks....i can't deal with all this shit....i mean i worry so much about how my friends are and how i can make them happy....ok yeah so now i am babbleing on like a fucking idiot....forgive me for this if ur my friend....i'm tired and i'm having a freekin breakdown and i'm not typing to make any sence what so ever....i just wanna get it all out of my head....i don't know who i can trust anymore....i am constintly lied to....by people i care about alot...and they don't know how much it hurts....
Ya wanna know what i was thinking about today...of course you do b/c why else would u scrool all the way down here ? I was thinking about that damn thing again about...Love being just a chemical reaction...how sad is that....but what if it's ture....is there another chemical that tells you to break someones heart? and if there is...how come it's mostly in all the guys? Some guys can be such pricks...You never truely know someone till they lie to you or cheet on u...ok.i think i got most of everything out amd i'm pretty sure this is the most cynical entery i have ever had so i think i'm out now....
XOXO
Lizzie
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[03 Dec 2001|10:24pm] |
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This world is really fucked up!!!1)There are so many things i don't understand about the opposite sex!!!(i mean how hard is it to tell ur true feelings about someone?Wait no i admit thats really hard...but i could not be any clearer with my feelings if i tattooed ur his name on my freekin forehead!!!) I'm not talking about anyone in general...i'm just sayin....if you like someone...grow some balls and tell them...CARPE DEIM(i have no idea how to spell that) but seize the freeking day!!!ok what else is bothering me??? 2) i have no money....i have no idea how i'm gonna get all the people i love christmas presents???GRRRRRRR!!!i ahve so many things all jummbled up inside my head ...i wish i could make sence of all them....i think i need a prozac.
Ok now my third and final complaint of the night....goes back to the guys...i know there are great guys out there...but y do there have to be more pricks then nice ones? And y is it that the nice ones always like the stupid...stuck up...nice ass girls...they are really nieve!!!B/c here's the secret...the girls who will make the nice guys truely happy and never leave there side....are the ones they don't notice!!! And then us girls without the perfect everything get stuck with the guys who will treat us like shit...Ok i'm done being stupid ...i know my thoughts mean nothing to most of the people who read this...but i needed to get them out of my head...so good~night!!!
XoXo
Lizzie
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[19 Nov 2001|10:54pm] |
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hello world!!!
today was a fun day, if i may say so myself. I was kinda hyper and it felt good to get a little energy out... but right about now i am crashing and burning!!!
The day started out pretty slow...but then it picked up in english...which i have no idea why, b/c i hate the teacher , the bitch won't even let me put lip gloss on in class!!! but enough of her...she's dumb.
Ok so 5th period was the same....sat and talked to justin...went to lunch sat and talked to shannon...allicia...and justin.
pottery and art...did jack shit...as usual!!! then went to spanish and tried to fall asleep with out the teacher sending me to the office for one of the schools famous drug tests!!! One person got it done the other day....it was funny.he got kicked out of class for falling asleep and they thought he was a drugy!!!HaHa tells ya what kinda school i go to!!Fuckin Mr. Minio(penis head)i hope he chokes on fruity jello!!!
well after school...Allicia came to pick ashlee and i up to go to the mall...we did alot of shopping...holy hell!!!LOL!!!and now i am tired b/c it was a long fun day . SO i'm gonna go to bed now...byes!!!
XoXo
Lizzie
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[17 Nov 2001|11:48pm] |
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Ok i think this has to be the worst day of my week!!!Let's start with the main problem....SATAN...A.K.A My sister...i swear she is the freekin anti-christ,right next to Allicia....but even allicia is nice sometimes....But NOOOO my sister has to be a bitch 24/7...i think everyone has said at one point or another that they hated there sibling...but they do not know true hate till they live with her...she has no idea how far she is pushing me....i mean she calls me names...she puts me down all the time...she makes me feel like nothing...and guess what...I'm the fuckin older sister. I mean i should be the one making her life hell...she gets what ever she wants....ok, ya don't believe me...here's and example(my friend gets her lisence...we go to the mall...i didn't ask my mom if i could go but i did anyways...i get bitched at and have to stay at home the rest of the weekend...My sister on the other hand...who is only 14 says to my mom she smokes....what does my mom do...she lets her!!!!)What the fuck is that???
can anyone sence the favorablity here? i get shit and my sisters the fuckin woman of the house...i wish my mom would just grow some god damn balls and stand up to that bitch....b.c if someone doesn't do it soon i'm just gonna deck her...granted i'll get in big trouble...but i'll feel better....ok i'm done wasting space in my journal...i just had to get that all out!!!Sorry if it bores you but it's my life.
L8er G8ers
XoXo
Lizzie
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[11 Nov 2001|11:05pm] |
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Hello People,
Today was a thinking day for me....i watched 2 really good movies that made me think about life. The main thing i thought about today was LOVE... is it just a chemical reaction in the brain or does it really exist?
i hope it's not a just a chemical reaction b/c that sounds scientific...i'd rather think of it as magic then science!!!And another thing about love...why in the hell is what a person looks like an important part of attraction to most people???I just don't get it...why to people have to judge a person by there looks before getting to know the person first???
Here's another thing i wonder about....how come it is so easy to tell a person everything and anything...but it's so hard tell a person u love them...and u can't live without them???Damn i think to much!!! what else do i find stupid....ummm when people hurt themselves!!! When someone does something that can hurt them alot...and i'm not only talking about suicide...but the person who does the thing never stops to think there not only hurting themselves but they are hurting every single person who loves them...by leaving.It's just like lieing....it hurts worse then u think,when u get lied by someone u love. Ok i think thats enough of my thoughts for now...there will probly be more for tommorrow since it's a monday...byes!!
XoXo
Lizzie
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[11 Nov 2001|12:29am] |
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Hello world,
Man the last few days have been very weird, all i have done is hang out with all my friends and have fun....well for the most part.
Last night i went to Keesh's house b/c she had a little get together.It was really fun just sitting around and talking about stupid shit...Like people with no upper lips and good ol' whistle nose!!!!<---private joke!!!
HEHE ok enough about that...when i woke up this morning i felt really crappy....but i told my friend allicia i would go to a show with her....and i did...the show sucked,and i wasted 5 bucks....but ohh well....no use crying over it now.
Well i'm going to bed now b/c my damn parents r bitching at me...nighty-night
XoXo
lizzie
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[06 Nov 2001|10:26pm] |
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Hello world,
it's a new freekin day and everything has been great!!!My two best friend are finally being civil towards each other...Oh happy day!!! I hate when people fight, especially when it's 2 people i count on most to make my day fun!! Ok so enought about that....i hate being sappy!!!
GEEZ let me tell u the bad thing that happened today, I was out buring trash and then i went in the house to talk on the computer....then i looked out side and the ground was on fire!!!! I was freeking out so bad!!! SO i had to run outside and beat the fire with a shovel and my neighbor had a broom and my sisie got the water and we played fire people!!! HEHE oh joy....man was my mom pissed at me.
Good news...i don't have to burn trash for a while!!!
Ok so what else happened today??? Nothing....ok so i guess thats it then...more of my life later...
XoXo
Lizzie
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[05 Nov 2001|11:24pm] |
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Hey people,
It's been a while since i have last did something in a live journal....and this time i have a different name.
Ok so let's do a little catching up!!! I have met alot of awesome ppl over the net in my past 2 months of not posting...and if any of you read this...which i would think you were severly bored to do so...I Luv Ya all.
To my friends i see everyday...thank you for making me feel loved...Allicia you know ur my best friend and shannon ur a close second...thank you both of you for being so nice and caring...and giving me lots of advise on you know who!!!Allicia no matter what happens/YOU get mad at me for being dumb or something else stupid we could fight about, you will always be my friend...nothing will change that...i don't care if u hit me with a baseball bat...i will still ask u what the hell ur problem is(LOL)and then help u with it...Shannon...don't worry sweetheart, your prince charming is coming...but not on a white horse...he's coming in style...in a white mustang!!!HELL YEAH!!
And now on to Justin...we have become friends like super fast and it's a good thing....your an awesome person!!! YOu may lose sight of ur priorities once and a while...but no matter what i won't hate you!! I really hope you and allicia will get over this little thing and we can all be a big happy family again...I miss the times we just sat and talked about stupid shit and laughed about it!!!Can we please have that back again?
Ok i think i'm done now...but believe me i'll have more!!!
Sorry if i let anyone out...you all know i care....i just can't type down all the names of the ppl i love!!!
Bye bye people
XOXO
Lizzie
P.S-GOD HELP NENO-I CAN'T LOSE HIM!!!!
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